Arrgh, the bitch, the bitch, the bitch my back!

Joy; can't sit for long as my back has gone into spasm, housework is hazardous to your health, putting washing into airing cupboard yesterday and 'ping'. My lovely daughters laugh and say I look like Mrs Overall, thanks, love you too!!

Re-found the poem below while sorting through my paperwork drawers, once my back is happier i'll dig out some more and post, meanwhile, lovely Luke this is for you, love you very lots xxxxxxx


Why did it take so long to write this verse?
When I am just so extrastatic about your birth!
You are a joy; if looking for a definition for that word
transpose with Luke!

You emanate the simple happiness of being alive
when young enough to not be sullied and weighed down
with all the woes the world has round it's neck.

I love you just as much as those grown in My skin
I have to stop myself from squeezing you too hard from love
like wanting to extract the final morsel from a tube 
of squeezy cheese.

Nannapo xxxx

Today is not a cheerful day...

Today is bright and sunny, wish I felt the same. 

Having Dysauto makes me feel really isolated, everyone else is out there in the big wide world doing their jobs, having their freedom, yes I know lots of people have jobs they hate, but they have some amount of choice in what job they do, they Can open their door, get in their  car and drive away from the house each morning! I feel I have no control over my everyday life and my destiny.

At times like these I feel the need to dig a hole

and jump right in so it swallows my soul.

On days like these when my world feels amiss

I feel like I don't even want to exist.

How can I find just a shred of self-worth

when it feels no-one would miss me if I wasn't on this earth?

Mrs Dizzy has a sad face

Oh what a beautiful morning…..

Ah spring appears to have sprung, making it an almost pleasure to drag humungous basket of washing down the garden to hang on new whirlygig!

The birds are chiriping, the airport is humming quite quietly (almost bliss) and the large trees in next doors garden aren't an over-shadowing pain this morning but adding the sound effect of gentle waves breaking on a far off shore.

Today the Not so Secret Garden is looking much more presentable than the previous pics posted, lots of 'works' are under way to put up sheds/poly-tunnels and covered seating areas, and ground is being cleared to re-plant with lupins, delphiniums, sweet violets and lily of the valley, just a couple of more warmer days so their roots don't feel the soil is like the shock of jumping into a local authority swimming pool! After that  begins the rush to get the vegetable seeds sown, yellow runner beans, white patty-pan courgettes, butternut squash and sungold tomatoes - yum :>P - more on that later.

Ah, back to the washing……..

Ooo it's right nice 'ere!